five days since i laughed at you

fragility.

i think it's such an interesting concept. right?  we drive, speak and act as though it is a non-factor, right?  as if we are this unaffected being, something that can survive anything.  the idea of controlling our own destiny is an entirely intoxicating reality for most.

what i wish was more discussed, is the absolutely fragility of our lives, and everything that includes.

we blow through yellow-to-red stoplights, as though it's the norm, we talk as though those who we are speaking to will always be here by our side, we react in accordance with our feelings, as though those we love will not be eternally affected.  the theme?  invincibility.

no one should live their lives in fear, actions should not be taken or not taken due to the idea that tomorrow may never come - instead i truly believe that every moment should be lived as though you don't know what will come next.  i mean really, isn't that the truth of it?  you can't live a life full of what-ifs, but can you live a life you are proud without making every moment a conscious decision?  not guilt, not pressure, just simple thought and decision-making.  sometimes i think our culture, even christian culture, drives us toward this ideal of perfection, whatever that looks like.  i don't mean that, but what i do think counts is that when we look back over life, our own and other... that we moved forward, we made decisions, we made waves, we loved, lost, looked, and everything in between.

i don't want to live a life full of looking back, wishing i would have been more attentive to my decisions... instead they were made by default.

we are all fragile, everything in our lives is fragile - and i think if we live without that fact in our every day lives we are fools.  yes, God is in control, always.  but if we ignore that anything can happen, at any time, we have learned nothing.

a truly wise individual sees that while we cannot control what happens to us, we can control what we do.  there is no victim, there is no silly excuse, we choose, we move, we go, we do.  just make sure that when you do, it is truly something from your heart - not a thoughtless reaction.

we are all fragile. handle with care.