jaded eyes

always interesting to me to see people who cannot admit past life choices they've made that were not wise (or even actual mistakes), because of their sheer fear that it would destroy the very fabric of who they now are and why.  it's not that i think it's silly, i can understand the fear, but unless you married the wrong person (legit!), or you've murdered someone, chances are, it's gonna be okay.

take a deep breath and assess your life.  it's okay to take a realistic look at it and admit the mistakes that you've made, and, "GASP!", no, really, i  mean it - admit them.

now yes, it's true, there are people out there who have made life-altering, astronomically-large mistakes, that truly have transported them into a life that maybe, possibly, they just weren't meant for... but i would guess, those situations are relatively rare.

we, the collective we, for the most part, are not too stupid.  typically if we are on the verge of a real dumb mistake someone we love (or sometimes hate) will drag us back from the brink, the cold facts of reality will slap our faces, and we will be thankful for the fresh perspective of those who can see things far more clearly than we can.

but - what happens when you look back on your life and there are one or two moments in which you know you truly did make a mistake?  flawed judgement.  i mean sure, we all make decisions we regret, like take the wrong exit, get off on the wrong floor, or snap at someone that really wasn't the reason for our crabiness... but i meant genuine mistake, one that when you look back over your life, stands out, not necessarily because of it's magnitude, but because of it's ramifications.

i don't really know what the answer is to this one.  not much rolling around this head at 12am on a sunday morning, other than the fact that - we are all human.  this is not an excuse, nor a reason.  it is simply a fact.

that said - if you know that you have made a rather large incorrect life choice, a mistake, take care of it now, don't wait.  did you steal a car?  nope.  did you rob a bank?  highly unlikely.  is it the end of the world?  i think not.  but it is never too late to change, never too late to not only realize who you want to be, but more poignant, who you are right now.

God can do some pretty amazing things.  we just have to stop seeing it all through jaded human eyes.