somebody else's song

i think as you get older you realize that all of the questions you thought you had the answers to when you were younger, weren't really questions after all, they were just the things that define the way that you live your life.

or maybe some of them were questions, but you realize there isn't ever a "right" answer.

we, humans, have struggled with major issues for all of our time here on earth, and yet, we still strive, on a personal and national level, to solve these things that plague us.  hunger, health care, happiness, hope... in a hardened world, there are still many of us whose hearts are soft to the needs of others.

what i don't get... is what exactly are we fighting for?  don't get me wrong, i understand why we are fighting, for everyone to have food, a warm bed, most importantly, a chance to know our Creator... but what does that actually look like?  if we know that our world is ultimately sinful, and until the time has come for the world to be reborn (or however you interpret revelations), we will not have ultimate peace, or perfection, then how do we make it better?

i keep thinking about eating contests... those superbly awesome food-consuming machines (people) always tell you the same thing - never look at what you've got left to eat, just focus on the bite you've got in your mouth, you'll just get psyched out otherwise.  this is awesome because i love food.  also, i'm just sayin if they ever come up with a juicy-luicy eating contest i will win. end of story. but i think the jist of it, is basically, focus on what is at hand, don't try and put everything on your plate (pun intended) all at once and expect you can do it all without faltering.

wondering what God has for us in this crazy big world with lots of problems... i could be wrong, it's happened before and it will happen again, but i really feel like it's to touch those that you can on a daily basis. one step at a time, as much as you can, and that's what really makes a difference.  all of the grandiose plans in the world will never have an effect if they don't make it off the drawing board.  someone has to do something, even if it's just starting with a pencil and some paper.

when you struggle with control like i do, this revelation is scary. i would rather ponder the perfect solution and get started on making things better.  i want to problem solve and save the day.  but i don't think God works like that... sure, He gives us answers occasionally, but we are not capable of solving all things, only He is, and this world will never be a perfect place.  we just need to touch everyone we can, every way we can, with the time that we have been blessed with... anything beyond that is out of our hands - as it should be.