time passes and it tells us what we're left with...

we become the things we do.

okay, so at this point in history, third eye blind may be kinda "out", but being on the cutting edge of the music scene has never really been my thing, so you'll hafta forgive my lack of caring...  point is, Stephen Jenkins, you had some gosh-darn-good-points.

if you asked me who i was, honestly, you would get a long list of what-i-loves mixed with what-i-wish-i-was's.  what you would not get, more than likely, is many nouns and adjectives.  and if you were lucky enough to get some of those descriptive words from my mouth, they prolly wouldn't line up with what you think of me.  so what's the point?

we become the things we do.  right?

well, not totally.  we are blessed with a God who is bigger than everything we are, everything we do, and who, without him, we would be destined to become.

but.

i still think we tend to lose track of what's important at times.  we are swept up into the whirlwind of crazy that life can bring... we are pushed, prodded and even jostled (yeah, that's right, i whipped out the J word!) into places or down paths our future-former selves would not have guessed, nor chosen.

what are you willing to give up to become who you want to be?  is sacrifice always for the best? at what point does what you do become who you are?  the countless hours spent in front of a mirror, the tv becoming a constant companion, the blood sweat and tears for an unattainable goal... how do you spend your time?  what do you "do"?

i see so many smiling lips paired with sorrowful eyes.  when is it enough?  losing that weight that always plagued you, changing the things that you've always hated, but the new habits and vices won't go away.  putting on a fresh new face won't hide the pain that stays in your heart.

i think sometimes change comes slowly, one small thing at a time, and before we know it, we are more different than we ever expected.  but what about when you can see that change in others, much more quickly than they can, and you can do nothing to stop it?  a mouth without a voice, what's the use in that?

so what's the point?  should you live a life in fear of change?  no.  change is normal, healthy, and for the most part, positive.  i'm just sayin' that it is incredibly important that if you do desire change in yourself, that it is for the right reasons.  because you may get your wish, you might become who you wanted to be... but at what cost?  and remember, you are very loved just the way that you are...