if you could only see... (love is blind)

on my run today i realized something: how crazy it is that people ask me how i am dealing with Ryn's eye condition.   don't get me wrong (i feel like i have to say this a lot, which really just proves that maybe i should start re-wording things instead of having to constantly explain them... efficient? nah, i'm good), i so so SO appreciate people asking me, it definitely blesses me each time, but i am always at a loss for how to respond.

how am i dealing with it?  uh, idk?  i'm dealing with it the same way i deal with having to go get groceries or a dirty house, it's just life.  Ryn's "illness" does not define him, it is just a small part of our life now, it doesn't dictate who we are and how we live life.  yes, it affects us, but so does a lot of stuff in life.  that's just the way it goes.  i think it's funny how people always forget that whole "in sickness" part, they seem to assume that the "in health" part is just a given.

my husband is brave.  he is an incredible leader, in every possible way.  he has faced this, like so many obstacles in his life, with wisdom and grace, and i cannot describe how incredibly lucky i am to have married such a wonderful man.  we have been so blessed  by God in many areas of our lives, how could we lose focus of that in the face of a few setbacks?

if you're married long enough, you get the privilege of experiencing some mountains in life together.  pretty much anyone who is married around the age of 40 or older will likely go through at least one major illness of one or both spouses (and likely, eventually death), and the chances of those illnesses being life-threatening are ever increased as we get older.  and us?  this is not even close to being life-threatening, simply life-adjusting, and for that we both feel incredibly blessed.

and what does it matter if it's now or in 20 years?  my oh-so-sweet co-worker said to me "you guys shouldn't have to experience this so early on in marriage" and i said, "why?"  i don't subscribe to the belief that you get to live in a protected bubble until you've been married for at least 10 years.  that's just silly.  and what drives you closer than fighting a common enemy?  not much, i'll tell you that :)

so going for a run brings me clarity on things, which i love, and like i said, i am so very blessed when people ask.  but here's the answer in 20 seconds or less:  my husband is brave.  i am passionate about fighting this with him - i am blessed to be his companion for life and whatever that might bring.  God is an amazing healer and He will prevail, either in this life, or in the next - we will continue to live in His grace, just like with anything else in life.

love isn't blind, it just chooses to look a little deeper.